Category Archives: Parts of me

Don’t turn away

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I’m frightened by what I see
But somehow I know
That there’s much more to come

Mirror 2

The mesmerizing voice of the singer seems to echo the whispers in my head, and I sing along the lifeless promise in the lyrics, and I repeat almost chanting, praying in tears, “if I will it all away“… The shards of my broken reflection, scattered on the floor, seem to be calling me. Screaming my name, as the song says.

Mirror 1

Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be
Blinded by tears
I can stop the pain
If I will it all away… if I will it all away.

✽ڿڰۣ— FEATURING ڿڰۣ—✽
Head: GENUS Project – Genus Bento head [BETA]
Body: Maitreya Lara Mesh Body
Skin:
  7 Deadly S{k}ins – Dawn – Dew (NEW at Dark Style Fair – until November 4th)
+ shape based on 7 Deadly S{k}ins – Dawn shape for Genus
Hair:  Sintiklia – Hair Amara – Ombres
Tears: Just Magnetized – Crybaby – set 01 (Omega)
Outfit: [WitchCraft] Mikah Teddy (NEW at On9 – until October 20th)
Shoes: [Renegade] Brooke Fatpack (NEW at the Black Fair)
Mirror: Kalopsia – 7 Years Bad Luck Mirror
Room: {RoawenWood} Le Petite Grande Room Skybox

Quotes: “Whisper”, by Evanescence.

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If I can’t be beautiful

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So self-obsessed with my mascara and mistakes
Vanity’s like a funeral and everyone is at my wake
Before I run out of air there’s more make-up to apply
Doll eyes stare into valium colored skies

If I can't be beautiful

I kick off my shoes, exhausted, and simply lie down on the rug, surrounded by all my gorgeous loot. I cannot have enough from this B&B new glam. I want them all, I need them. Let me play with all the colors, let me lipstick myself all over, let me create a perfect, beautiful me.

Tell me your secrets and I’ll tell you my lies
Everything is monotone in my dead eyes
If I can’t be beautiful, I’d rather just die

✽ڿڰۣ— FEATURING ڿڰۣ—✽
Head: Catwa Head Catya (Bento)
Body: Maitreya Lara Mesh Body
Skin:
  7 Deadly S{k}ins – Romina freckled – Caramel
7 Deadly S{k}ins – skin HUD omega Caramel: freckles #3
Hair:  *ARGRACE* Akane – Dark Browns
Outfit: {B&B} Gothenticity Top & Skirt Black (RARE – NEW at the Lootbox Gacha Event)
Setting: {B&B} Gothenticity Pallettes, Skulls with brushes & lipstick, and Get Cheeky (Silver [common], Golddigger [rare], and Holo [rare])
(Cute AF collaboration between Bombae and the new and mysterious Burbana, released at the Lootbox Gacha Event.)

Quotes: “Beauty Killer”, by Jeffree Star.

The undefined hour

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‘Cause there’s a monster living under my bed
Whispering in my ear…

Sleeper

I don’t know how long it’s been since the last time I checked what time it was, and I don’t think I want to know. It doesn’t matter anymore, there’s a subtle light sneaking in through the blinds… It gets slightly cooler, it must be between 5 and 7 in the morning… would it make any difference?

I roll again, searching for the cooler spot on my Kentaro bed, the silky cover barely touching the thousands of freckles on my Brooklyn skin. The world behind my walls awakes, and I finally start drifting into an exhausted slumber. Too late, so late…

✽ڿڰۣ— CREDITS ڿڰۣ—✽
Body: Maitreya Lara Mesh Body
Head: Catwa Head Catya (Bento)
Skin:  7 Deadly S{k}ins – BROOKLYN freckled – Walnut (at Blush)
+ 7 Deadly s[K]ins – 2017 skin HUD omega Walnut (Freckles #3)
Hair:  ANTINATURAL[+] Synthetic Crush / Cyborg Hairstyle / GRAYSCALE
Tattoo: PMS – Till Death Do Us Part Tattoo
Bed: {Roawenwood} Kentaro Bed Set (at Swank)

Quotes: “Put your lights on”, by Santana feat. Everlast.

There’s a darkness living deep in my soul
I still got a purpose to serve
So let your light shine, deep into my home
God, don’t let me lose my nerve
Don’t let me lose my nerve…

What lies beneath

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Don’t turn away
Don’t give in to the pain
Don’t try to hide
Though they’re screaming your name

Half demon

I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away…

✽ڿڰۣ— CREDITS ڿڰۣ—✽

⬅️ Me:
Body (hands): Maitreya Lara Mesh Body
Head: Catwa Head Catya (Bento)
Skin:  7 Deadly S{k}ins – Texas – Dew (at eBento)
Eyes:  IKON Triumph Eyes – Hazel
Smudged mascara: Just Magnetized – Crybaby – set 01 for OMEGA
Tattoo: PMS – Till Death Do Us Part Tattoo
Tongue: Sinful Needs – Mara Base Tongue – Daeva Full Set
Hair:  no.match_ ~ NO_EXCUSE ~ Essentials/OMBRE
Nails: #EMPIRE – Coffin Nails – Short *Maitreya*
Nail polish: DP – Koffin Nails – FatPack – Victorian Rose
Ring: *AvaWay* Wedding ring #6 (for her)

➡️ Me:
Body (hands): Maitreya Lara Mesh Body
Head: Catwa Head Catya (Bento) + Catwa Teeth Add-on
Skin:  Sinful Needs Skin – Reverie – Ruby
Eyes:  Sinful Needs – Eyes – Occularum2 Aether Ruby
Tongue: Sinful Needs – Kali Split Tongue – Amy Full Set
Hair:  no.match_ ~ NO_EXCUSE ~ Essentials/OMBRE
Ears:  Sinful Needs ~ Mesh Fae Ears S1D1
Horns:  Sinful Needs – Darkfell Barbed Horns
Claws: #EMPIRE – Claws Nails – Ultra *Maitreya*

Quote: “Whisper”, by Evanescence.

Time for us

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À peine sorti du sommeil,
À peine, à peine tu t’éveilles
Que déjà, tu cherches ma main
Que déjà, tu frôles mes reins.

Picnic 1As soon as the sun rises and the last mists of the night dissolve, barely awake your hand already slides through the bed, looking for mine, rolling over for a half-asleep embrace. The day restarts, as it has for years now, spring, summer, fall, winter…

Do you remember? It feels like yesterday… that first glance at each other, the first smile, the first night spent in your arms… My stubborn, my smartass, and then my sweet, and my fragile; you’re the wave where I dive, you’re my strength, you’re my rule.

Picnic 2

Your stubborn, your irascible, and then your sweet, and your fragile; I’m the wave where you dive, I’m your strength, I’m your rule. The day drifts away, I see you through the sunset twilight, and you observe me. There are distant noises, people somewhere, living… but we’re alone here, curling into each others arms.

Ta bouche à mon cou, tu me mords.
Il fait nuit noire au dehors.
Ta bouche à mon cou, je m’endors.
Dans le sommeil, je t’aime encore.

✽ڿڰۣ— CREDITS ڿڰۣ—✽

🍷 Me:
Body: Maitreya Lara Mesh Body
Head: Catwa Head Catya (Bento)
Skin:  7 Deadly S{k}ins – Romina Freckled – Maple
+ 7 Deadly s[K]ins – 2017 skin HUD omega MAPLE (body moles/freckles)
Eyes:  IKON Triumph Eyes – Hazel
Tattoo: [Witchcraft] Hocus Pocus tattoo (at Suicide Dollz)
Hair:  Moon. Hair // – Hysteria – Bleach
Shirt: ::GB::Off shoulder Shirt (F)* / White

🍷 My handsome:
Body: [Signature] Gianni Body – Body
Head: CATWA HEAD Daniel
Skin:  7 Deadly S{k}ins – Bart – Cotton (August GROUP GIFT)
Hair:  NO.MATCH_NO.HINT.
Outfit: ::::GB::One sideoff tops / Black
Piercing: [Drunken Brokkr] Ormr Piercing Set

Scene: {RoawenWood} Dionysia Winery Lovers Picnic (at Whimsical)

Quotes: “À peine”, by Barbara.

Cruel summer

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Hot summer streets
And the pavements are burning
I sit around
Trying to smile but
The air is so heavy and dry

Cruel summerHumming in the quiet summer night, all the fan can do is move the hot air around the room. I can feel the soft cotton of my Sugar Skull top practically pasted on my skin. Droplets of sweat run down the freckles of my Bali skin, almost as if they were tracing the swirls and curves of my Tiana tattoo.

The city is crowded
My friends are away
And I’m on my own
It’s too hot to handle
So I got to get up and go…

✽ڿڰۣ— CREDITS ڿڰۣ—✽
Body: Maitreya Lara Mesh Body
Head: GENUS Project – Genus Bento head [CLOSED BETA – COMING SOON]
Skin:  7 Deadly S{k}ins – Bali – Fudge (Izara’s Birthday GIFT!)
+ 7 Deadly s[K]ins – 2017 skin HUD omega FUDGE (Freckles #3)
Eyes:  IKON Triumph Eyes – Hazel
Hair:  :::Phoenix::: Tisha Hair Dipped
Tattoo: [WitchCraft] Tiana Tattoo (SALE at Witch)O(Craft main store)
Outfit: [WitchCraft] Sugar Skull Animals (top/panties) (at Gothic Garage Sale)
Pose: FOXCITY. Stairs (Sitting)-4m
Scene: My home

Quotes: “Cruel Summer”, by Ace of Base (original: Bananarama).

One breath apart

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Be still, my love, I will return to you
However far you feel from me, you are not alone
I will always be waiting
And I’ll always be watching you…

The roaring clangor of battle has faded, but the air is still heavy with the scent of blood and rage. I retreat to the only place where I can find true silence. I remove my boots, to better connect with this sacred ground. I fall to my knees, I call your name, hoping that somehow you’re only one breath apart, watching me… speak to me.

Offering 1

I’ve come to offer these wounds, the scars of my flesh, and the wound in my soul that is taking too long to heal. I also offer your vanquished weapons, to lay here forever in remembrance of you, until my soul can rush into yours once again… speak to me.

Join me by the altar of the the Mark of the Warrior Memorial at The Fantasy Collective until July 10th. This beautiful creation by The Roawenwood is close to my heart. It was inspired by the Chaddul-Ro memorial created for the 2017 Fantasy Faire, a work of grief and healing, a work of eternal love.

Offering 2

We are one breath apart, my love
And I’ll be holding it in ’till we’re together
Hear me call your name
Just believe and speak, speak to me…

✽ڿڰۣ— CREDITS ڿڰۣ—✽
Body: Maitreya Lara Mesh Body
Head: Catwa Head Catya (Bento)
Skin:  7 Deadly S{k}ins – Sparrow freckled – Oak (at AnyBody)
Eye (R):  IKON Triumph Eyes – Hazel
Eye (L):  Izzie’s – Demon Eyes
Scars: Le Forme Battle Scars FACE
Dirt: Izzie’s – Body & Face Biker Dirt
Hair: no.match_ ~ NO_KINGDOM ~ Pack of REDS
Outfit: Dreaming Thicket – Andraste Armor – Fortress
Scene: {Roawenwood} Mark of the Warrior Memorial (at The Fantasy Collective)

Quotes: “Speak to me”, by Amy Lee.