Category Archives: Parts of me

Also wanna have fun

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That’s all they really want
Some fun
When the working day is done
Oh girls, they wanna have fun

In that fuzzy universe that we call RL, she lives at the other side of the world, and we never met. However, she has been a part of my life for years, always there for me on the other side of her screen. She’s my shopping buddy, occasional blogging model, parcel roomie, and always a good friend.

Pillow fight 1

We love to go hunting together, and then we open our loot and have some fun with it. The cute and very sexy little dress we’re rocking here is the Lucrezia, by Witch)O(Craft, and it’s part of the Hunt for your Inner Slut. Deliciously sheer, it displays my Asha tattoo, also by WC, an exclusive for The Expo Fair.

Beyond the fun, the shopping, the parties… we talk. We can’t be there in person, but whenever I need an ear to vent, she’s there for me, like we’re two regular pals, sharing a snack and staying up late. Today we’re also skin buddies, both by 7 Deadly S{k}ins. She wears the lovely Calamity with face moles in Caramel (right), and I’m looking pretty in my Tatum in Maple (left), exclusively created for the Ultra event.

Pillow fight 2

When you read this, dear Chanty, thank you for being a friend all these years. Here’s a cupcake toast to more good times together.

✽ڿڰۣ— CREDITS ڿڰۣ—✽

Me:
Maitreya Lara Mesh Body / Catwa Head Catya (Bento) / 7 Deadly s[K]ins – Tatum – Maple (at Ultra) / /Wasabi Pills/ Skyler Mesh Hair – FLF Exclusive pack / IKON Triumph Eyes – Storm / [WitchCraft] Asha Tattoo (The Expo Fair) / [Witchcraft] Lucrezia Dress (at the Hunt for your Inner Slut).

My BFF:
Maitreya Lara Mesh Body / Catwa Head Catya (Bento) / 7 Deadly s[K]ins – Calamity – Caramel / Mina Hair – Alison – Reds / Quar Store – Tattoo Balance / [Witchcraft] Lucrezia Dress (at the Hunt for your Inner Slut).

Setting:
Pillow fight scene: FOXCITY Midnight Madness (With Pillow Props) / Persefona Floating Pillow Feathers / {Roawenwood} Grande Royale Bed / Anachron – Cupcake Plate Gacha (various).

Quote: “Girls Just Want To Have Fun”, by Cyndi Lauper.

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Behind the door

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What I’ve felt, what I’ve known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there? ‘Cause I’m the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven, too?

Bride 1You will be here, I know that much. All the rest is noise, the flowers, the intricate bejeweled gown, the dazzling jewelry, the elaborated plans… it’s all beautiful, but nothing more than a pretty background. This is our story. Come beside me, and speak the words that make my demons run.

Bride 2

Come lay beside me, this won’t hurt, I swear
She loves me not, she loves me still, but she’ll never love again
She lay beside me but she’ll be there when I’m gone
Black heart scarring darker still, yes, she’ll be there when I’m gone

✽ڿڰۣ— CREDITS ڿڰۣ—✽

Body:
Maitreya Lara Mesh Body / Catwa Head Catya (Bento) / 7 Deadly s[K]ins – Story spotted – Sand (at the Designer Showcase) / .:EMO-tions.. *CALANIA* -RED / 7 Deadly s[K]ins – JUICY omega lipsticks – Lady / IKON Triumph Eyes – Storm / Izzie’s – Festive Shimmer Eye Make-Up.

Outfit:
.:FlowerDreams:.Serap – soft pink (50% off at Zuri Jewelry’s Bridal Affair) / Zuri Rayna – Bridal Tiara-Bridal White-Rose P-Mesh (at Zuri Jewelry’s Bridal Affair) / Zuri Rayna ~ Sashi Complete Jewelry Set – Pink/Diamond/Black Sterling / Merivale Zenda Wedding simple veil (part of the Zenda Wedding gown, at Zuri Jewelry’s Bridal Affair).

Setting:
Ethereal City-Lacrimosa Cathedral.

Quote: “The Unforgiven II” by Metallica.

Taste the poison

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I can feel you calling me
I can see the cracks between these walls
But this pain
I choke on the words as they rise in me
To survive, I lock down

Music and laughter fill the air, a siren wails in the distance, someone yells something to the bartender… my body moves to some rhythm by inertia perhaps, while the blaring chaos around me muffles all my thoughts. Good. Some things are best unsaid, even if it’s just with the voice inside my mind.

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Cigarette smoke and sweat drench the soft cotton of my Witchy top, one of the latest creations by Witch)O(Craft, released at Suicide Dollz and soon at the main store. I can feel it crawling on my Muriel skin, smokey eye shadow and all, a beautiful creation by 7 Deadly S{k}ins that you can find at the Vintage Fair.

I need fresh air, or perhaps I really need to poison my breath in solitude. Maybe the silence won’t be enough to awake the dark thoughts. I let my Sierra heels by Renegade carry me outside. You can find these ravishing shoes at the Good Vibes event.

Smoking 1

Say the words
I can’t face the world
If I could say the words
Everything would be broken still
We are broken

✽ڿڰۣ— CREDITS ڿڰۣ—✽

Body:
-Belleza- Freya Mesh Body / Catwa Head Catya (Bento) / 7 Deadly s[K]ins – Muriel – Pineapple (at the Vintage Fair) / IKON Hope Eyes – Poltergeist / no.match_ ~ No_Sugar ~ Unicorn / #ADORED – so jucci lips – gothicc edition {catwa} / [WitchCraft] Ganesha tattoo.

Outfit:
[WitchCraft] Witchy Outfit / [Renegade] Sierra – Fatpack (at Good Vibes) / Blueberry – Serena Pants – Fat Pack AsteroidBox. Cross Collar / **RE** Elektra Nails & Rings Set / **RE** Savage Ears Piercings.

Setting:
anxiety %madness (Image 1) and .:Joplino:. Backdrop Live Show (Image 2) at Backdrop City/Night Vibe Section/Nightlife.

Quote: “Lockdown”, by Amy Lee.

Crimson regret

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Do you remember me?
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side?
Will you forget me?

Regret 1There are no moments of silence, true silence, and there hasn’t been any for a long time. There are always chaotic thoughts buzzing in her head, sometimes whispering, sometimes screaming, lest she forget. Disturbing ideas become a dark companion, like a passenger who copilots from time to time.

… To die—to sleep,
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to…

Regret 2Is that the deliverance that she so craves, or will darkness follow into eternity? Are the mesmerizing flickers reflected on the edge of the razor just a tantalizing siren’s song, aiming to drown her will into nothing?

Wash away the grim intent together with that pathetic trail of mascara down your cheeks, turn around, lie to yourself that you’re stronger and that you love life, lie hard enough that you might one day believe it, truly believe it; lie louder than the screams of hopelessness in your head. This is a battle that you could survive.

I’m dying
Praying
Bleeding
Screaming
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?

✽ڿڰۣ— CREDITS ڿڰۣ—✽

Wearing:
Maitreya Lara Mesh Body / Catwa Head Catya (Bento) / 7 Deadly s[K]ins – Seventeen – Maple (at Ultra until June 8th) / [Witch)O(Craft] Raven Dream Tattoo (at Suicide Dollz until June 2nd) / IKON Triumph Eyes – Hazel / Izzie’s – Wet Body & Face / Hair: *Argrace* Chizuru – Blacks / Tears: Just Magnetized – Crybaby – set 01 for Omega.

Setting:
[Merak] – Elegant Bathtub (at my home). Pose in image 1: [evoLove] – Backside 8

Quotes: “Tourniquet”, by Evanescence / “Hamlet”, by William Shakespeare.

Exactly like you

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I know why I waited
Know why I’ve been blue
I’ve been waiting each day
For someone exactly like you

Seven years ago, on a beautiful summer night between German holidays just like now, I saw him for the first time. He walked on the dance floor and I remember thinking he was the most handsomest man I had seen. Only a few minutes later, he was dancing with me, the first of many nights that I would feel the world disappear in his arms.

Dance 1
Today we dance again, he gets lost in the sensuality of my Clairy gown, created by Witch)O(Craft exclusively for the Dazzle event, which runs until May 25th. He runs a hand through my back, playing with my Zuri Jewelry pearls, and exploring the curves of my new Cherry Blossom tattoo, also by Witch)O(Craft, which you can find at The Avenue until May 22nd.

He introduced me to Second Life, and he also took me to my first visit to 7 Deadly S{k}ins, a favorite since life before mesh. Tonight the lights shine bright on my Seventeen skin, an exclusive creation for Ultra, and his handsome Judas skin. I will never forget that first night, that first dance… that feeling of the imminent first kiss… he’s the love of all my lives.

Dance 2

You make me feel so grand
I wanna give this world to you
Baby you make me understand
These foolish little dreams I’m dreaming
And schemes I’m scheming

✽ڿڰۣ— CREDITS ڿڰۣ—✽

Me:
Maitreya Lara Mesh Body / Catwa Head Catya (Bento) / 7 Deadly s[K]ins – Seventeen – Dew (at Ultra) / IKON Hope Eyes – Poltergeist / TRUTH HAIR Etienne / [WitchCraft] Cherry Blossom tattoo (at The Avenue) / .{PSYCHO:Byts}. Ava Eyeliners Pack / 7 Deadly s[K]ins – CHANT fair lipsticks glossy+ duo / Yasum*Victorian Nailart & HUD* / [WitchCraft] Clairy Outfit (at Dazzle) / Zuri Jewelry – Sultry Soul Mesh Elite Collection V2.

My handsome prince:
[SIGNATURE] Gianni – Mesh Body / CATWA HEAD Daniel (Bento) / 7 Deadly s[K]ins – Judas – Caramel / no.match_ ~ NO_EXCUSE ~ Essentials/Ombre / -HORR- Mesh Vicenza Suit Bluegreen.

Setting:
Meva Photo Box Cylinder Black/Pink / Anachron – Mirror Ball Set.

Quote: “Exactly like you”, by Nina Simone.

I will stay forever

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Give me a reason to believe that you’re gone
I see your shadow so I know they’re all wrong
Moonlight on the soft brown earth, it leads me to where you lay
They took you away from me but now I’m taking you home

Altar 1

Your magnificent courage was no match for death, and all the inspired songs cannot fill the emptiness you left. I walk through the rest of my life without your words, without the ringing sound of your laughter, with the shadow of your memory always clouding whatever happiness comes along. You never gave up, but death doesn’t care. I return to this sacred ground again, to call your name, to light my useless candles for the wind to blow, to summon you, as always, back to my side.

Altar 2

Let the fairies guide you to the Fantasy Faire. Help us find better endings for our real stories by contributing to Relay For Life, part of the American Cancer Society fundraising in Second Life.

I will stay forever here with you
My friend
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on

✽ڿڰۣ— CREDITS ڿڰۣ—✽

Body:
Maitreya Lara Mesh Body / Catwa Head Catya (Bento) / ND/MD ZOE head Skins LIGHTEST -Omega HUD (in Pools of Ethuil at the FF) / IKON Triumph Eyes – Hazel / :[ET]: FF Magical Earth (in Severina at the FF) / DP – Koffin Nails – FatPack – Sleek & Somber (in Severina at the FF) / Hair: +Spellbound+ Shahrazad // Natural Ombres & Roots.

Outfit:
Outfit: Dreaming Thicket – Verbena – Hellebore (in Sanoria at the FF) / {Acios} Teleria Jewelry Set (in Falls of Hope at the FF) / !TLB – Ryu Dermal + Tattoo (in Severina at the FF). Props: BDD Air Crystal (in Aetherea at the FF) / .~DN~. Candle Invocation – Typer (in Sanoria at the FF).

Setting:
[HL] Mystic Dome + [HL] FF 2018 Memorial Stone + [HL] Binding Altar Columns (in The Willows of Nienna at the FF) / {RW} Pools of Ethuil Spring Trees + Green Trees + Grass Pack (in Pools of Ethuil at the FF) / Titans Relic Sword v4 (in The Willows of Nienna at the FF) / Curious Kitties – Fairy Ward Lantern – Yellow (in The Bazaar Dungeon at the FF) / [Cb] FF Crystals with On-Off Particles (in Sanoria at the FF).

Quotes: Even in death, by Evanescence.

Nothing else matters

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Nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don’t just say
And nothing else matters

It is here that time stops, even for a little while, everything around us fades in a blur that doesn’t concern us. Our pains, our struggles, our looming fate, even the icy wind of Berlin don’t matter… Only your kisses on my skin, love pouring down my eyes, our happy laughter.

Sensuality 3

Our playground is the Vilnai Bed, created by The Roawenwood for a past round of Whimsical. You can find it now at the main store. With different tones of wood and bed covers, it is full of beautiful animations, ranging from intensely erotic to quiet and relaxing. You decide which ones are which.

Sensuality 1

The sensual skin that my lover touches is one of the latest creations by 7 Deadly S{k}ins, called Shelby, in tone Fudge. Matching the new group gift, Shelby is also available in a large range of skin tones as group special sale. I chose the browless version with my own eyebrows (because it was a better fit on my Catwa head), and I’m also using the new body appliers with all those cute moles and freckles that he likes to kiss.

Sensuality 2

My handsome guy is wearing Judas in Caramel, also by 7 Deadly S{k}ins, cool facial hair included. Not a whisper, no sound and no fear, not a care in the world but this moment, and nothing else matters.

✽ڿڰۣ— CREDITS ڿڰۣ—✽

Me:
Maitreya Lara Mesh Body + Hands / Catwa Head Catya (Bento) / 7 Deadly s[K]ins – Shelby – Fudge browless (current group sale at main store) / IKON Hope Eyes – Scoria / Hair: Unorthodox Odell – Noir / [Ni] Natasha Brows / Just Magnetized – Special Hairbase set 05 for OMEGA / Yasum*Add me*Victorian Nailart & HUD* / Nerido – Limba gacha (commons gold/black).

My lover:
[Signature] Gianni Body – Body + Hands / IKON Sovereign Eyes – Industrial / **RE** Savage Ear Piercings / [DB] Ormr Piercing Set / no.match_ ~ NO_EXCUSE ~ Essentials-OMBRE / AITUI TATTOO – Hairbase 2.0 – Skulls and Roses.

Setting:
{RW} Vilnai Bed [Adult] Dark Wood / Persefona Floating Pillow Feathers.

Quotes: “Nothing else matters ”, by Metallica.